Wednesday, May 19, 2010
i havent been blogging recently,
and partly's because i'm lazy.
but there's just so many things going on,
that you don't want other people to see.
the messed up life,
the confused mind,
the aching heart,
all caused by that stupid spark.
but still the cat's gotta be let out,
the beans' gotta be spilled.
if not i'll just be like a balloon,
that's gonna burst when it's over filled.
i've been chased out of my house twice,
threatened, beaten, to never come back.
but the truth is, i don't really care.
the lies/deceptions/threats to kill yourself doesn't work on me anymore
especially when you've been doing this,
since i was in primary school and still on going forevermore.
i have been neglecting some of my friends, perhaps all,
but i just don't have time to balance them all.
my break is that limited,
it's either you or her.
i sincerely hope you guys would forgive me
if i seem to be drifting away.
and still consider me part of the awesome gang,
that would be forever etched in my heart and never ever sway.
the precious few,
you know who you are.
and those other friends,
you know we're meant to last. (:
and since when i became so poetic,
it's starting to freak me out.
no thanks to house of night,
or that one person i've been thinking about.
those three times i saw you today.
those three mini heart attacks i had.
were really the best time of my life (okay maybe today),
that i've ever had.
i've been noticing you since day one (don't mean to sound like a stalker but yeah)
i hope you've noticed me too
in my oh-so-clumsy efforts to try to get to know you.
but your mind seems far away,
it seems to be on somebody else.
somebody that is definitely not me,
but still, i wish you well.
i hope she cherish you,
i really really hope she do.
but in case she breaks your heart,
just remember that i love you too. xD
[okay... this is really random.]
it is FINISHED @ 02:52
