Sunday, November 15, 2009
i still couldn't get over the amazing-ness of it all.
was attending the miracle service yesterday,
and pastor pacer was talking about the fall of man and the grace of the Lord.
he asked this particular question that impacted me so greatly
and all i could remember of the service was this:
How did God feel when man sin?
all along we've been (or rather i've been) doing:
ah crap. i've sinned and now i have to confess and pray that He will forgive me thanks to the blood of Jesus, or oops i did something wrong and i need to repent etc.
it was all about me, us, never about Him.
it felt like you didn't do your homework and the teacher gave you that face and maybe scold for a little bit then let you go that kind of thing.
hell no. and i got my prayer answered today.
after the 9am service,
i just had this urge to attend speedlight for like after a super long time of not attending.
and pastor pacer talked about the book of Hosea.
it goes something like God ordered Hosea to take a prostitute as wife.
he did just that, cause it's like hey, God ordered you to. can't possibly say no right.
[would you have wanted that as your calling?
that one day, God came to you and say: you are to marry an unfaithful partner because that is what I have planned for you? no way any of us would have wanted to be in Hosea's shoes]
but for the first couple of years, Hosea was actually quite happy.
they had 3 children, his wife didn't leave him and he loved her.
then came one day that the wife actually said that she will leave him and the family,
go to her lovers because only they could provide her the finer things in life.
devastated as he was, God ordered Hosea to actually buy back his wife.
it's like you go up to the prostitute and redeem her kind of thing.
have you realised the answer to the question at this point in time?
how God felt, was the same as when Gomer (Hosea's wife) cheated on him and then left him.
imagine your own wife/husband sleeping around with other people
and you had to sacrifice your pride, money, everything, to get her/him back?
most of us would think:
ewk. she cheated on me! why would i want her back?
but hey. that's exactly what God did.
we turned our backs against Him, worship other things instead of Him.
it's the same as loving other people instead of your own husband.
and then He had to sacrifice his only Son, to buy us back.
yes, it's crazy, but that just goes to show how much He loves us,
(hello! wake up people! He killed his one and only Son, the only person who is pure, in exchange for us who are sinners, unfaithful, unloving, and basically don't give a crap about Him? i say:
there is no greater love than that.)
by the way, Gomer ended up loving Hosea, because he loved her.
just as how we love God, because He first loves us. (:
well, pastor pacer mentioned something about being filled with immense joy so much that we would actually burst after we know of this truth.
but all i felt was guilt.
if he meant being all snotty and teary-faced
then yes, i felt the "joy".
it is FINISHED @ 14:46
